Monday, June 8, 2009
What I Think About When I Walk.
My left ankle has finally healed I believe. I would have to say it's about time that I got over the pain from hurting it almost two months ago. Now though I have a new pain. One that is slowing me down some on my walks. I have sharp pain that shoots through my right shin and knee. It's sporadic and the knee feels swollen. I'm not one to let it stop me though. I am walking on. I have a goal in mind. I want to be healthier and I want to be able to live a normal life. So last week on my Sunday evening walk I encountered my first heckler. Not a supporter at all. A young guy of about twenty give or take a year either way shouted out: "Hey big mama shake that sweet ass, shake that thing." I was all ready not in a good mood so I flipped him the bird and told him to grow up. As I was walking today my actual fan club of supporters were out. It was hard for me to get motivated to walk today since my leg hurt and I didn't get enough sleep last night but I put on my shoes and my Walkman and watch and headed out. The first bend had the kindly older gentleman who shouted way to go you're doing great and keep it up. Then my neighbor lady smiled and waved and another gentleman asked how it is going for me and told me to keep walking. It was much needed support on a day when all I wanted to do was stay in bed. You see when you're heavy and a social pariah so to speak, you know people are going to look at you differently and there are those people who would have stopped walking the moment the heckler had tried to shame them or embarrass them. Not me. I won't be stopped. I'm going after what I want, but I wonder how people can be like him. It's nice though to know that the majority of people are being supportive and understanding that to start an exercise program and to change the way one eats is a form of rehabilitation. Food is an addiction of sorts. One that brings comfort to fill a void. It's the same for people who fill that void with drugs or alcohol. The trick is to realize the problem. The trick is to find other avenue's to fill that void and emptiness and not to let people tell you things that will make you do otherwise. I could get up every day and feel sorry for myself but I refuse to. I need to find the positive in the day. So on I walk. I am adding exercise bike time and weight training and Nintendo Wii activities to help me on my journey. I have the Jillian Michael's Wii training game. I did a thirty minute cardio work out last night and a fifteen minute one this morning and I am going to do as much as I can in a week. So all this went through my mind today as I walked. Along with the fact that I have some friends that seem kind of bummed lately. I wish I could pick up their mood for them, but I can't. Hopefully they just know they are loved and they are loved as whom they are. Each person needs to know that they are most important and at their best when they are their own person and understand they are loved for whom they are. I also saw and took this picture of the ambulance being towed away and wondered if it was headed back from dropping someone at the hospital or if it was headed to pick someone up and how unfortunate for an ambulance to get broke down along I69. I also thought about this field that has been for sale for over a decade now. It's right in front of the Indiana Department of Transportation. It is easily seen from I69; however, it is not so easily gotten to. There is one entry way in and one out. I am of a conflicted mind on whether I would ever want anything back there or not. I kind of like the peace and tranquility that comes with the empty land. So this is what I think about when I walk. This and so much more. Walks are very good for the mind and soul as well as the body. So what do you think about when you walk?