Saturday, December 20, 2008
Old Men & Lace
And the question would be: What are two things Sheila has never been into. Seems like there is a pull from "older men" to me though. I'm not talking just a few years either. What is my dating range? No one more than six years younger than me and no one older than 15 preferably. I would bend them under the right circumstance though. I mean if you looked like Chuck Norris who is twenty seven years older than me and have any of the characteristics of the characters he plays then I might have to make an exception. You see it's not all about age. There are things I would like to find to have the perfect partner. Although I'm doubting I'll ever find them. You see I'm looking for someone who could love me for me. Not looks. I don't think I'm bad looking though. I do need to finish getting the weight off, working on it, but that shouldn't be a determinant. Then this person would have to be someone who was looking for a partner in life. Someone to share their life with. Not someone who wants to control or boss or even be bossed. It would have to be someone who enjoys life just for life. Not someone who has to have something to do all the time to be happy. Someone who knew life isn't perfect and looked at the imperfections as a challenge and a blessing for making life a little more interesting. I know I know. I want a lot don't I. No they don't have to have money. Not that I hate money, but I can't stand it when people think I could give a damn about how much they have or how much they paid for something or how much something cost. I dated a guy once that told me constantly how much he paid for things. Money seemed to be his golden idol. Wasn't for me. I also went out with a guy once who told me that I had to sleep with him. He said I was lucky to be out with a catch like him. So I picked up the pitcher of beer he had just ordered and pored it in his lap in a crowded restaurant and called a friend to come pick me up. What nerve! Oh and lets not forget the one guy I went out with that couldn't not look at his own butt in the mirror every time we would pass one, or even a window if it was shiny enough. Then the one guy I thought I had a start with, couldn't leave the pills and booze alone. I guess such is life. What I can't figure out though is why every "OLD" man in this city gravitates towards me. Today at Walmarts I was sitting up front (I was very tired, hadn't been out much since surgery) and this old man came and sat down on the bench beside me just as close as he could get. He kept looking at me. I kept looking away. Seems to be a thing at Walmarts because a couple of years ago there was a cashier that worked there that I wouldn't go out his isle when I was there. He flirted like you wouldn't believe and kept asking me out. And don't get me started on the old guy at McDonald's that asked me if I was looking for a good time. I'm at a point in my life where I have pretty much given up on relationships, which is too bad. But I know I would never settle just to have someone. I would rather be alone. Now just in fairness to the younger guys too... Let me tell you that I wouldn't be tossing Chris Young out if he were coming my way. I don't ever see that happening but just because he's eighteen years my younger - he does make my heart skip a beat. There are lots of reasons age can be a problem. No, none of them that came to mind were sexual. Mostly interest are usually different for one thing. I know the music I like now is not what people in their fifties and sixties like and definitely not what people in their twenties like. I also know the younger generation like to party. I like to attend a nice party every once in a while, but not a boozer and definitely not one where you will find drugs. I hate bars anymore. Unless it's a quite time in there and you're just with friends I'd rather not be there. Who knows where life will take me, but either way my life is fine the way it is. Too many people are too selfish these days to really be in a relationship or they get into the relationship for the wrong reasons. I watch it over and over with my friends. A couple of them have really good relationships, but most of them have a rough road. They say there is someone out there for everyone, but sometimes I think they have it wrong. Sometimes I think there are a few of us meant to walk alone for whatever reason that is only known to God. Either way I'm happy so it doesn't matter. I'm grateful for all I have and all that I am. But if someone can explain to me why I have a gravitational pull in this universe that brings the sixty-five plus my way. Please let me know. Again not that the right one may not be that age, but I doubt they will be stalking me in Walmarts. Just my opinion.