Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Deep Breath IN, Deeper Breath OUT!
I'm not expert but I'd be willing to bet that stress is a number one killer of people. It can do so much damage in such a short amount of time. I know I've had one killer headache since yesterday afternoon. I've waited four months for my test to see if my cervical cancer is gone. I'm hoping it is. I've found though that it is very common among women and I've met a couple that my treatment worked for and a couple it didn't. The ones it didn't had their cervix removed and were fine then. I've heard no horror stories of women dying although I'm sure there are a few who have. I also know there are worse things in life happening to people all the time. I try to keep that in perspective although again I'll tell you that what affects your life and soul no matter how small to someone else is huge in your own world. It didn't help that the woman told me that test results usually take 24 hours to come back if normal and 48 if not and no call today. I'm sure I'm on a list to call somewhere and all will be fine though. STRESS HAS BEEN ADDED. It is what it is though. Work has been less stressful, my personal life has been a little stressed. Over all though I'm good though. I'm looking forward to a great summer. I started walking again and I've been watching my diet. They started me on a thyroid medicine to hopefully help and I'm looking forward to seeing friends at the Elmhurst gathering on the 14th. I miss Rob. I remember him saying when I found out I had cervical cancer cells that we would get through this, he'd be here for me. I'm sure he meant it. I just wish he were here. I'm sure on some level in spirit he is. Hopefully the doctors will call tomorrow and I can move on with the next chapter. I know I'm strong though and with everything that happens in my life like this I grow stronger. I have great friends and family. I'm luckier than most. Well that is it on the update front for now. For now it's deep breath in and deep breath out and walk knowing God is with me either way.