Why I'm here....

Since I've always been quick with an opinion an old friend once lost and again found suggested that perhaps I should share with more people my commentary. Never being one to pass on a challenge I thought I'd give it a whirl.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

A Last Conversation

As I woke up this morning and looked outside I noticed how beautiful everything was with the snow falling so beautifully from the sky. I'm not a fan of the weather, but I know how to appreciate it's beauty. Either way I was just over struck with a deep sadness. Last night I went over to a friends house and played cards. I had a great time. When I came home all I wanted to do was take a shower and then lay down and go to sleep; however, I always check my email. To my shock and dismay there was an email in there telling me that Jeff Germann, a supervisor I work with in Ohio had passed away. Now I have never met the man, but I have talked with him almost every day of life for the last couple of years on the phone. He seemed to me to be a fair man and I always enjoyed talking to him. It just doesn't seem right that I won't
be speaking with him again. I remember speaking with him on Tuesday before I left for my three days off. It's odd but for some reason in his voice he sounded so tired. I told him he sounded very tired. There was a note of concern in my voice at that time. Something didn't seem right to me. He told me he's always tired but such is how it is with the job he had that there was a lot going on and not much rest to be had. I told him to get some rest and I'd probably speak with him in a few days. I joked that at least I wouldn't be calling him for the next three days. He told me to enjoy my days off. A last conversation. What would one say if they knew it would be a last conversation? Reba McEntire has a song where she talks about if she had only known. Life is precious and you never know when your number comes up. I don't know what happened with Jeff because I haven't been to work yet. I will miss him though and I extend my deepest sympathy to his family and friends.

"If I had only known I'd never hear your voice again I'd memorize each thing you ever said And on those lonely nights I could think of them once more Keep your words alive inside my head If I had only known I'd never hear your voice again... " From Reba's If I had only known..

6 comments:

Joe said...

Sorry to hear about this. I work "with" a lot of people at my job, also, that I have never met in person. Throughout constant, modern technology and communication, you feel like you know them quite well. Again, sorry to hear about this loss.

Sheila said...

Thank you.

ida said...

when i was finance in the military i also "worked" with people i had never met. i am very sorry about this. if you need to tell you boss when you go back to work. perhaps they would let you have the rest of the day off. we had a man a few years ago pass away. he had worked with another person for years and their familys knew one another. that other person took some time off when his friend died and ended up bidding back downtown. take care sheila. love ida

Ritchie said...

I was sorry to hear this. Saw it in your moment-to-moment update.

Anonymous said...

I also used to work with Jeff. I retired a couple of yers ago and didn't know he was ill. I do believe the company he worked for takes advantage of their workers. We have lost a great guy... and it didn't have to happen...

Sheila said...

Yeah he was a great guy. I have dialed his office phone several times this weekend just to hear his recorded voice. I guess that is kind of morbid but a part of me just doesn't really want to let go. Thanks for the comments.