A friend of mine & I went to see John Edwards performance at the Grand Wayne Center in Fort Wayne Indiana this past Wednesday night. The venue was smaller than I had expected it to be. I have long been a fan of John's for his ability to help bring comfort to so many through his writings. I have every book he's written and I love them all. They are an inspiration so if you've not read them I would highly suggest that you do. This being said I am a skeptic to a large degree on what he is or is not doing when he's giving a reading. I watched carefully for ques from the people he was reading and listened closely to every word he said. He seemed confident in his choices of telling people things about their family; however, it almost seemed like fishing too. I guess I also have a hard time because I have had so many things happen to me in my own life that I should automatically believe. I mean I've passed messages on to friends and family from the other side to help them. I've known things way ahead of schedule I should not know. I've seen things I can't explain. Here's the thing though I'm not sure if what I've seen, heard and felt is a person communicating from the other side or an angel conveying the message from above to help the soul here that needs the message. These things also don't happen to me on a command basis. I can't just say OK I'm open so lets start talking to people. Then there are night visits. I've had many visits as John described them in my dreams. They are so vivid that when you wake up you're lost as to where you are. Are these actually the spirits of loved ones passed or are they again angles helping us with a need to see loved ones and be comforted. Then there is a scarier option that the things that go bump in the night are demons and that they are here to seem as if they are giving comfort only to lead us away from the Father. Now I loved that John Acknowledged God in his reading he did. Although he says he's not a fan of organized religion he is a believer. That is of comfort as well. Most of the questions and "hits" he had with the audience I could have had a hit on as well, as in I could have answered yes to the questions he asked; however, I think I would have to believe, or I feel that I have had a larger number of deaths in my life than most people. I've known people who were murdered, committed suicide, died in car accidents, lost to a fire, one lost to the waters... so you see I could probably hit on about anything he could come up with so again it makes me a harder target. Why has death been so prominent in my life. If I could have asked one question of John that probably would have been the one for me. Now on the day that I went to see John's performance I was getting ready to drive at 12:18 pm when something told me to note the time. It also went on to tell me to ask John when the last time he enjoyed a reading and did it for no cost. No cost in money, no cost to his soul. I wasn't sure what to think of this but I could not get it off my mind all day. I sure as hell wasn't about to raise my hand and ask that question of John in front of everyone and I live on a check by check basis so the general admission was really more than I should of spent to go see him I didn't spend the extra to go spend one on one time with him although I would love to have. A friend of mine was there though and I told her to tell John that 12:18 is supposed to mean something to him. I'm not sure what and I don't know why. I felt better even though I don't know if she conveyed it or not. That same friend was with her mom and they told me how the mother had asked for two signs for the night. One was for a feather. Now they told as how a small feather had fallen from the ceiling in there right before we came in and landed a little ways from them. Where would a feather come from in the Grand Wayne Center exhibit hall? I do have prophetic dreams. I've had them all my life. I do believe I've walked and talked with Jesus in a dream and I do believe I've been shown the end of days. So maybe it's harder for me to believe? I know I believe in the writings of the King James Bible. I know it warns of false prophets, so I am skeptical more often than not. I also do not begrudge the man making a living using his craft; however, I believe once he has made enough to sustain him and his family if he really has a gift he would do a lot more charity readings or use his gift for good. I would also ask him why he doesn't help with crimes. I can't live his life for him. I can't know his crosses that he bears so I will not judge, but I do have a curiosity about it. My general thoughts on Wednesday though are that I don't know that I saw anything that would lead me to believe in what he's doing or not. I know if he's true or not that if he gives a little bit of peace to a grieving soul that this is all good with me. So do you believe?