A Last Conversation

As I woke up this morning and looked outside I noticed how beautiful everything was with the snow falling so beautifully from the sky. I'm not a fan of the weather, but I know how to appreciate it's beauty. Either way I was just over struck with a deep sadness. Last night I went over to a friends house and played cards. I had a great time. When I came home all I wanted to do was take a shower and then lay down and go to sleep; however, I always check my email. To my shock and dismay there was an email in there telling me that Jeff Germann, a supervisor I work with in Ohio had passed away. Now I have never met the man, but I have talked with him almost every day of life for the last couple of years on the phone. He seemed to me to be a fair man and I always enjoyed talking to him. It just doesn't seem right that I won't

be speaking with him again. I remember speaking with him on Tuesday before I left for my three days off. It's odd but for some reason in his voice he sounded so tired. I told him he sounded very tired. There was a note of concern in my voice at that time. Something didn't seem right to me. He told me he's always tired but such is how it is with the job he had that there was a lot going on and not much rest to be had. I told him to get some rest and I'd probably speak with him in a few days. I joked that at least I wouldn't be calling him for the next three days. He told me to enjoy my days off. A last conversation. What would one say if they knew it would be a last conversation? Reba McEntire has a song where she talks about if she had only known. Life is precious and you never know when your number comes up. I don't know what happened with Jeff because I haven't been to work yet. I will miss him though and I extend my deepest sympathy to his family and friends.

"If I had only known I'd never hear your voice again I'd memorize each thing you ever said And on those lonely nights I could think of them once more Keep your words alive inside my head If I had only known I'd never hear your voice again... " From Reba's If I had only known..